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December 8, 2005
Have yourself a melancholic Christmas
Another year roles by, and retrospect rears its ugly head. I've had an eventful year, and was hoping for a good end to the year. That, however, does not seem apparent. It may be the first time this year that I'm feeling a bit blue. I've managed to make light of most mishaps and general crappiness, but I think I need to be melancholic for just a while-it may make the start to next year seem ok in comparison. Expectations seem to play a big part in my mood at the moment. One always expects a jovial festive season, and every one of them seems to let me down. Things I don't want to happen do, and things I do want to happen don't. I'm a bit tired of making light of my bad luck, and would really wish it would change. As far as I can remember, I haven't broken any mirrors recently, yet seemed to be damned with a series of let-downs.
I suppose I should just do what I always do, and get the head down and carry on persevering. I just wish the big man up there would cut me a bit of slack, because I'm sick of people who don't put any work into things, yet reap rewards, and I carry on slogging away, yet end up with nothing.....and then shrugs my shoulders and try again. I also wish that people weren't so unreliable. I suppose I can be that too sometimes....let he who is without sin cast the first stone and all I guess.
All that, and I can't stop eating chocolate...it's like a drug, I get serious withdrawl. I've tried dosing up on magnesium and calcium, but I can't get enough at the moment. It's not comfort eating, it's a serious addiction. May have to find me some help. Maybe a two-for-one deal, you know, the "Get off the choc, and sort your head out" kind of deal. We all have our vices I suppose
Posted by kat at December 8, 2005 8:21 PM
