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January 31, 2006
Unluckiness is...
What goes around, comes around. Bollocks. I spent the whole of yesterday doing good deeds for the people of Londres (listening to some Jehova's Witnes testify, helping a lady carry her pram up like a gajillion stairs and cutting my finger in the process, letting old people sit down on the tube seats...you get the picture), and I get stuck next to a "talker" on the 11 1/2 hour flight.....not only was he a talker, he was a drinker too, with a troublesome past, who did not take hints as to when I was not listnening to him. Burt, or Bernie his name was. Didn't pay much attention. Drank 2 bottles (full bottles, not those puny airline bottles) of red, and 1 bottle of white, and maybe a few glasses of champagne when he boarded. After his persistent droning, and constant questioning on how to turn his seat into a bed (there was one big button you pressed with a drawing of a bed on it), he passed out, and proceeded to kick me most the night (his leg somehow ended up over the divide????), and when not directly kicking me, would kick the plastic bottles of water onto me. I am never going to be nice to people, well strangers, ever again. Bad Karma
On a happier note, I got the cutest phone designed only for girls. Its screen turns into a mirror. I'm usually a Nokia girl, but it is ever so pretty, and the interface aint half bad either.
Off to pass out somewhere in the heat. Maybe I'll get a drink down me first....
Posted by kat at 2:12 PM | Comments (1)
January 30, 2006
Boredom is....
Does anyone remember those "Happiness is" dolls. They were scary. So....I left home at 08:15 this morning, hung out at the airport for 2 hours, then my 'plane took off. Then I landed, and am still hangin around in an airport. I hate airports-too many useless shops with nothing to buy. Needless to say, I am hanging out in the business class lounge, but it's still pretty crap. Prawn cocktail crisps, cheap wine, and what feels like free dial-up internet access. My God......dial-up. I am going to the country of dial-up. No-one knows ADSL.......I am distraught.
Anywoo, must dash, only 2 hours left of munching on stale prawn cocktail crisps...so much to do, so little time. That, and my shoulders are siezing up from lugging bags everywhere.
Bon voyage......
Posted by kat at 5:24 PM | Comments (1)
January 25, 2006
What ever happened to "New Year, new you"?
Yeah, whatever happened to that. I have been reading over my past entries (to recall what has happened to me the past few months...I get distracted easily), and noticed how miserable they sound. Time for change, I say. Happy things happen around me all the time, I just don't embrace them and convert my happy feelings into happy writings. So I hacked my hair again, and it looks shit, and I'm seeing all my friends in a few days time, and by God I'm not Rupunzel, so it sure as hell won't grow in time, but hey.
I had a great email from Lola today. One where you have to fill in answers, send it back and forth to people etc so you find out more about them. I really hate spam, but I liked this one. I'm so glad my Lola hasn't changed much. I do fear me drifting apart from my friends. When I deleted her answers and put in mine (as you are supposed to do) it was rather enlightening, as I had to change very few. On the other hand, I have Caroline, who is the complete opposite to me, but I love her to bits. I really am blessed to have two such amazing friends who have kept in contact. I know I have found friends for life. Anyway, sent the email to as many people as I know (which wasn't very many!) and look forward to getting my replies, apart from Drew's-I know that one's going straight to the Trash folder.
So, I'm white, pasty, feel untoned, and have crappy hair at the moment. I'm so looking forward to hopping on the 'plane on Monday. Oh well, I'll get drunk lots and won't have to worry about my appearance. I've seen it done on most Saturaday nights by rather unattractive people, I'm sure I could pull it off. Note to self, gutters are cold, hard places.
Happy Wednesday
Posted by kat at 8:25 PM | Comments (0)
January 22, 2006
One more week
It has been an interesting week. One I would much rather forget. One more week and I shall be basking the sunny shores of my birthplace. Notice how I don't call it home anymore. Nowhere feels like home at the moment. I feel like I need to find somewhere new, or to meet new people. I feel stagnant at the moment. I hate being stagnant. I hate being bored.
Listening to Editors at the moment. It's nice to have some real music for a change. Not this poppy, Eurotrash that seems to be pumping out the radio. I also really want to learn to play a musical instrument. I'm debating as to which one though. Music seems to be the only thing that keeps me going now that I have nothing new to learn. That will all change in September.
On a lighter note, congratulations are in order for Leslie and my brother who have found happiness with each other and will be getting married soon. No peach bridesmaid dress please, I'm saving that one for Leigh.
Have a good week all
Posted by kat at 1:19 PM | Comments (0)
January 10, 2006
Sticks and stones
I felt trapped in a corner, like a little child in a dark room trying to hide from the monsters under the bed. No one else can see them, but that child knows they are there, and the monsters are taking swipes at the little child huddled in the corner. Mother comes into the room and sees the child crying for no apparent reason and asks "Why are you crying?". When the child replies they are crying because of the monsters, the mother holds them tight, and reassures them that there are no such things as monsters, but the child knows differently.
No reassurance is going to change how I feel. I feel trapped, and I am now doubting myself as to whether anyone else noticed what happened today, or it was just all fabricated in my fragile mind. Am I overreacting? When do you draw the line and consider something to be bad. I can now see how my actions may affect other people. I am sorry to anyone I may have ridiculed, or acted untoward to in the past. I did not know the impact of my actions. It is only when you are on the receiving end that you realise how badly it hurts.
People seem to have lost respect for each other's wishes. Since when did "no" mean "Go on, carry on saying those things to me. Let's see how long you can carry on until I break down into tears, or get up and leave, or swear at you, or....". I feel really cold right now. I wish I could be a stronger person. A good friend of ours conquered something the other night, showed true strength. I was distraught just thinking of what he had to go through, and cried most of the way to work. I wish I could be strong like him, not let anybody's words get to me.
Sticks and stones? If you say so.
Posted by kat at 7:56 PM | Comments (0)
January 8, 2006
Spring has sprung
The cherry blossoms are out already >< How exciting, spring is on its way. Also, birdies are cheeping away at the early hour of 8 o'clock. A good sign that the days are getting lighter. And...even more excitement in our household. We found our bin, which was thieved by some scally, but returned this morning....empty. Out came the tipex, and I have artistically marked it with out house number, in went the 2 weeks of trash that has been piling up.
Once again I have outdone myself and had an even more unproductive weekend than last weekend. It's the boys I tells ya. They only get out of bed at 14:00, so I'm stuck waiting, and then they end up playing games anyway, so I follow suit. Summer, hopefully, will bring about more activities, like gardening! I want to make my own garden in our courtyard. I'm broody for a garden! Note to relatives...birthday is on its way, I want a flowerbox.
Have a good Monday
Posted by kat at 9:57 PM | Comments (0)
January 3, 2006
Hoorah for work
Glad to be back at work. I took great pleasure in responding to the question "So, what did you get up to this new year's?" with "Levelling my ninja". The bemused look on their faces is ever so funny. For those who don't know, I play a MMORPG called Final Fantasy. I feel this completes my total transformation into uber-nerd.
I like not conforming with all the sheeps out there. The people that live for Friday nights to get drunk. I live for each day, and hope to make the most of the time that I'm given. I made a decision sometime last year, when I realised my potential to be able to study again, that I want to make a difference in this world. I want to contribute something to the Human race. I don't want to take a backseat, I'm going to get my PhD, and do something with my life. People move in and out of each others lives. I hope to drift in and out of as many peoples lives, and create an impact, for what-ever reason. On my judgement day I want to look back on what I've done and not only be proud, but satisfied with what I have achieved. If only this is made so, I will be happy. I don't want riches, or fame, or love,. I just want to make a difference.
My mother brought up a very valuable point yesterday, she said I was happiest when my day was crammed full of things. I must admit, I have become lazy in my old age. As a result, from Saturday, I am joining a swimming club, I will be completing some more non-Science related courses (maybe languages), and I will try to do something new every day. They say Gemini's can get bored easily, I can definately vouch for this, hence this year, my resolution will be, not only to be more productive, but to avoid boredom at all costs.
Good luck to all those on diets, and giving up smoking. I'm giving up boredom!
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