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February 25, 2006
Too much time on my hands?
I return to the age old question of is perception greater than truth?. There is a thought that as human beings, we cannot recognize all the possibilities in the world because we haven't seen them and therefore are in no mental position to accept them. The anecdote used to demonstrate this idea is one where the natives who lived in North America in 1492 could not see Columbus' clipper ships on the horizon of the ocean when he arrived because they had never heard of such ships and had never seen them before, so they were incapable of comprehending such things and therefore could not see them. Although this main stream of thought stems from the ludicrous movie "What the bleep do we know?" (which was appalling), I can't help think that it may be true
I've began to think about things like that alot lately, like do we control what happens in our lives? I can't help feel that I see things that I want to see, and therefore control my own happiness. I'm not talking about wanting to see good things, I tend to see the bad side of things, thus make myself unhappy. I feel that I need not bother myself with getting excited or having too high expectations, because I'm bound to come crashing down sooner or later anyway.
I've also started to see words that aren't in the text I am reading, and have to reread things, frantically scanning the page for the word I saw. Letters in words have begun to jump around as well. I was looking at a word the other day, and couldn't figure out why it looked wrong. After a while it dawned upon me that the second-to-last letter should have been an "a" and not an "u". When I confirmed the spelling with a colleague, they agreed that it should be spelt with an "a". When I looked at the word again, it was spelt correctly with the "a". My brain had read it as a "u" the first time, and recognised that it had been spelt incorrectly. Was that my perception, or a mechanical breakdown of the neurons transmitting the correct information. I suppose I'll never know.
I see other things as well that other people can't seem to see, which is sometimes worrying. I'm not like that kid in the Sixth Sense, I just need to do double takes alot. My mind is most definately playing tricks on me , and I don't know why. I get plently of sleep, vegetables etc. Maybe it's bored, maybe it needs more stimulation. Afterall, that brain is an organ that can, and needs to be exercised.
Too much thought happening now. I think I'll play a mindless game now, or maybe attempt to clean the house.
Posted by kat at February 25, 2006 2:34 PM
