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June 20, 2006
#100
Today is a rather significant day. We're heading up to the summer solstice, and although I am a firm follower in having proof to believe in things, and have constant arguments in my head over religion, the supernatural, and most things that generally require faith, the solstice is a time where I kind of forget about those things, and for one day believe in celebrating Mother Nature as spirit, and not as a collective term for an ecosystem.
I did very little in the way of work today, and almost literally had my head in the clouds. It got me thinking about fate and destiny and all that stuff I usually disregard as mumbo jumbo. I have an open mind, but as mentioned above, I need proof before I can take the plunge into actually believing the said thing. I think I may be seeing some form of fate weaving its way through my life at the moment. I'm not very good at passing judgment, in fact I'm utterly crap, but lately I seem to be making decisions that feel right, and seem to turn out well too. Things have been going fabulously for me this year.
Just before I got home I received a disturbing phonecall, which made my heart sink. I feel helpless in this situation that has arisen. The only thing I can think of is to put my arms around this person. I'm not very good at comforting people with words, I wish I was, because it would make things alot easier. I just wish the good fortune I have had, makes its way down south of the island.
I have taken many knocks and setbacks to get to where I am now, and I just hope this person has the strength to get through this, and that I can provide the same support that was given to me in my difficult times. I will always be here for you NM, and evern though I'll be a hop across the water, I'll still need a bit of looking after. And don't you worry, I still have exams to revise for :) I just hope I have flat-mates are as tolerent as you.
Moving along, as I wouldn't like to damper the tone of my #100 entry. Yes I have filled a whole 100 entries worth of pants rambling. Every now and then I go back to read one, and forget that I actually wrote some of the things. Usually "Oh God, did I actually write that rubbish?" comes to mind, but there are a few jems in there that are so incoherent, a professional translator wouldn't know where to start. Oh well, it is a direct link into the mishappenings of my mind.
After having a huge argument with Phil the arse (as he is now being called) about whether I actually have a soul or not, it was today agreed that I sometimes smile (although all too ofter lately), and thus must have some form of inner being, but it only selectively shows itself. Thanks Phil....you're still an arse.
I really wanted to talk a photo of the sea today. It was absolutely exquisite, with a marbling of all my favourite colours, and angry waves beneath a grey sky. But.....as new toys go, I'm not too good with the recharging of batteries, so my effort of getting the perfect landscape was fruitless. Maybe another day.
I don't really have anything much else to say, although I do think I owe it to this entry as it is such a landmark in the history of blogginess. Well, maybe my history, certainly not anyone elses. Maybe I should just quit this one whilst I'm ahead, as I feel it is spiralling downwards. Next I'll be talking about the weather....which by the way I think the solstice has already occurred-Summer is well and truly finished.....we have gale force winds and lots of rain. I just hope the weather clears up for 08 July for then I shall be donning my yellow feather and purple tights, and venturing out into the real world as a giant chicken. I can't wait.
And now I have just stooped that little bit lower on the scale of crap writing to actually talking about the weather.
Happy Tuesday everyone!
Posted by kat at June 20, 2006 7:00 PM
