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August 1, 2006
damned butterflies again
Was speaking to my mom this evening about me impending departure from the island, and we got talking about my plans for the first few weeks of university, and I got those butterflies again. Not about the fabulous science I shall be learning about, but just being able to get stuck into joining societies and sorting out my room and just the little things which I forgot about. Sure my primary excitement is for the science, but I can't help but get a bit giddy over the new life that I shall be starting.
I am, of course, sad to leave my existing life with all the friends that I have made, and the stabilty that has come with it. I do think I am a gypsy at heart, as I love to start over. Clean slates and all, although this time, I have no slate to wipe clean. I am perfectly happy with every decision I have made in the past 3 years, adn I don't think I will be wiping the slate clean this time, but merely progressing. I hope that I will have the time and energy to keep in touch with all the amazing people I have met along the way on my past journey. I will be making new friends, but that doesn't have to mean old ones will be discarded. In fact I'm not sure new friends could ever replace the ones I have made along the way. Ah, now those butterflies have been replaced with pangs of guilt at the prospect of me forgetting everyone. I can be flitty sometimes, and it worries me that I will become immersed in my work and new social life that I will forget everyone.
Hmm...now to get those happy butterflies back.....
Posted by kat at August 1, 2006 8:27 PM
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Silly Kat, I personaly think your openning the door to a bright and exciting new world. You have a passion, and with that passion you've set a path for yourself. Most of us blunder and wander through life looking for that very spark, that something to set us on a path. Sadly, some never find it. You've found your spark and you've got the courage, the determinitation, and the means to make your dream a reality. Don't fret about not having time and energy to keep in touch, I'm sure you will. Even if it's few and far between, your friends understand the reasons and why's of the path you've chose and will be there when and if you should need them. That's a quality that earned them the title of 'friend' in the first place. Toss your frets of forgetting aside, and go through that door knowing that each and everyone of us will be right there beside you cheering you forward^^ That's what friends are for, new and old. **Hands you a butterfly net** Now, I think you have a dream to go an catch^^
Posted by: Garkin at August 2, 2006 5:17 AM
