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November 20, 2006
Monday, bloody monday
So after a couple of melancholic days, I seem to be feeling a bit better. I still have a sadness looming over me, and have countless "What if?"s and "If only"s running through my head, but I suppose that's just part of the process. I seemed to have coped remarkably well with the situation. I'm not sure if that's down to the fact that exams are nearing, and I have too much work, so I'm constantly busy and filling my head with logistical thoughts, or I actually have reached that point in my life where I can honestly call myself an adult.
Comparing myself to my peers around me has somewhat made me realise that I am more grown up than I give myself credit for. I don't rely on anyone anymore. I even make telephone calls to places to find out information, something that I had an absolute fear of doing a couple of years ago. I put that down to my experience with the bank. I heard on Thursday that my ex-manager is leaving to work in Jersey. It left me quite dismayed. She was probably the one reason I was going back in the summer. With her not there, I may explore the option of working in a summer camp, or volunteering to do some biological samples collections in an interesting environment or something. Maybe, if I get a job next semester, I will fulfill my dream of going on an Earthwatch expedition. That would be incredible. I've always wanted to go to the Panthanol, or even back home to study the cheetahs. Apart from the fact that'd look good on my cv^^.
Oh well, back to the slog tha is uni. I have a fabulous 4 hours of revision waiting for when I get home at 5:30. Have a good week
Posted by kat at November 20, 2006 2:01 PM
