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December 13, 2006
so many things, so little time
Been up to not much lately. I got to visit my mom for a week, who I have been missing sorely. She's always been the closest person to me, and can always read me like a book, and is the only person who can do that, and so I rely on her an awful lot for support as I'm not one for sprouting out my deepest emotions. Yeah, I'm pretty open with the "I'm nervous, I'm bummed, I'm scared of this and that", but that's not what's really on my mind. Needless, as mother's do, she means the world to me, and even though she couldn't quite look after me they way she wanted to this past week because she has been working so hard, the fact that she let me stay at hers and eat all her food was much appreciated.
On the exam front, I feel very unprepared for tomorrow, I have done nothing since the 6/7 hours I did with Ula earlier, and it is now 23:16, and I shall be entering an exam hall in, oooh, 10 hours, which means I should be waking up in 8, but by the time I get to bed, I'll probably only fit in maybe 7 if I'm lucky, but now that I have worked myself into a panic, it may only be more like 6, oh god, I'm going to fail, aren't I? *breathes into paper bag* then there's Friday's exam which will be a thousand times worse *gets second paper bag* and that I have to still memorize a few things for *gives up and places bag over head*. *falls into a paper baggy pile on the floor* The problem is, it's not that I'm scared of failing, far from it, I am quite confidence I will get sufficient marks to pass, it's just I'm a bloody annoying person, who wants A's all the time...B's mean that you don't know up to 40% of the work, and that's pretty bad. I hate how universities lower their standards as to what constitutes a grade, but I'll save that for another rant.
Oh, joined the myspace world, due to popular demand by friends (the whole one), now I get to write mammoth comments that fill half their kitsch pages and make their other friends jealous of my oh-so-not literary skillz. Alas, I have not had enough essay work this semester, I do hope that that improves next year, as I'll start getting defriended soon if I carry on writing the crap I do. I wonder, is there a job out there that just entails writing the most poorly written mindless science drivel, which will bore more than half of the readers, insult the rest, yet still leave them loyal, with maybe a pension, and "can sit in bed all day with mac" policy. *starts to feel sleepy as she dreams of her perfect job*
Oh well, I suppose I shall have to force myself to sleep now, if I was only writing tomorrow, it wouldn't make much difference but I'll probably feel it Friday, or firday as I like to call it these days, as my typing is abysmal. Thank god for spell check
Right, 'nuff said *put paper bag back over head in hopes of reducing oxygen flow enough that she passes out*
Posted by kat at December 13, 2006 11:11 PM
