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May 1, 2007
/cry
I have probably gone through one of my toughest days this year. Exam stress is getting to me, and the more I break down and cry, the less work I get done, and so I carry on crying. Vicious circle and all ( O says "grrrrr"). I don't think I would have made it through the day without Kyle sacrificing his valued sleep time to cheer me up and give me that virtual shoulder to cry on, and quizzing me on nucleotides. I still feel really unprepared. I just hope it all comes together for Monday. I don't even want to think about my exam that Friday either. I feel like I know nothing, but I have to concentrate on the Monday exam now.
I think my fall down was not getting the exam papers out early enough, plus having too much time on my hands. If I don't get the marks I want, I will be disappointed, but it isn't the end of the world. I've been under the weather lately, there are construction workers working on the building opposite, and I'm having trouble sleeping, amongst other things like stressing over new flat thingies. Plus, these marks don't count towards my degree, so I don't want to unnecessarily set myself ridiculous goals (90% in my exams...what was I thinking) and burn myself out completely. I'm already cracking, and crying won't help me in the exam room. If I get my A's, I'll be chuffed, but I've always been a B student, so won't go crying over spilled milk if I get B's. I've learnt some valuable lessons this time round with a study break (I've never had a study break), and so when I do my degree examinations, I'll be prepared.
At least some good will come out of these exams. Let's just hope my cockiness of "of course I'll pass the exams" doesn't bite me on the bum >_<
Posted by kat at May 1, 2007 11:19 PM
