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August 31, 2007
It's been a while
Indeed it has
Posted by kat at 4:30 PM | Comments (0)
August 18, 2007
Enid Blyton
I'm a strong believer of fate and that everything happens for a reason. I didn't get that other job because I've had to learn valuable things from this job, like how to make a strong brew.
I find it rather difficult dealing with "normal" people who don't know me very well. When people ask me "what did you get up to this weekend?"
I digress though, fate is a funny thing. It's what's kept me going. if something bad happens, and always think of what my mom says, "it happened because there is something better to come". It's the only piece of solid advice I've taken from her.
The rest of what I have taken as life skills is from that silly little lady, Enid. The whole independence thing for instance. Looks at the fantastic five and the secret seven. Hell, even the faraway tree doo-dah. All those kids didn't have parent figures looking after them. They'd fend for themselves. I had this romantic vision (and still do) of what real independence is like. Not having to rely on anyone, being able to support myself, yet what Enid fails to show, is that you need emotional support as well. I failed to recognise this, and saw it as a sign of weakness having to rely on somebody, and so was very unhappy for some time, not wanting to trouble anyone with my problems. I'm now blessed with someone who has shown me differently. That it's ok to need someone every now and then.
Another example of my Enid Blyton brainwashing is my want to go to a boarding school. I dreamt of midnight feasts, and adventure. Little did I know that it would mean strict meal times and rubbish curfews.
I've also come to the conclusion that I am nothing without worry. I worry for people I hardly know, it keeps me up and night, and makes me cry when I see people hurt. I dream about them, and wake up feeling awful. Slowly something else worthy of my worry energy will replace it, but I'm constantly worrying about things.
On a lighter note this made me giggle a bit today. So did the "What did you do this weekend, same as last, stay in your jim jams?", "Yeah", " You're boring", "Thanks" conversation I had earlier with a colleague.
Happy week. One more week and one more month =D
Posted by kat at 2:54 PM | Comments (1)
August 17, 2007
Firdays
It's Friday. It' been a long while since I appreciated the weekend. Sitting with my uber bowl of sushi rice and tuna mayo makeshift onigiri in a bowl (defeats the point, really), contemplating what I shall accomplish this weekend. I'm hoping it's a big fat nothing of sleeping. In all honesty, I've been feeling under the weather for a few days, and today it hit me. That's what happens when you have to sit in the rain waiting for your stupid ass bus that is supposed to run every 15 min and then 2 rock up half an hour later *shakes fist at Lothian Buses* *No. 35*
Work is, well, work. Nothing exciting in that realm of my life. Life is, well, lively. So, I just had a call from the Jonothans, people we collided with a couple of weeks ago are sueing for £10,000. Just dandy. My stomach sank when they said this. That kind of messed up the whole mood of this entry, so I may as well call it quits and go compose myself.
Posted by kat at 2:35 PM | Comments (0)
August 8, 2007
Still internetless
Living without the internet sucks. Big time. The good news is that I will have my personal supply by next Tuesday. The bad news? I have to endure another week without it. This means more procrastination at work, and less fun on the weekend. I was so looking foward to playing FFXI too. I have a dragoon which needs some lovin', and a monk who is needing genkai 3 and assault attention.
The sun is shining in Edinburgh at the moment, however it still feels cold. There are so many neat shows on as well with the Festival. The Fringe has a nice variety of things to offer. I'm looking forward to getting around to watch Binari, and some samarai sword displays. Only problem is the lack of friends to go with. I'm not shy when it comes to going by myself, but I feel these things should be done in good company.
I'm going to try find a number for rent-a-friend now
k
Posted by kat at 12:57 PM | Comments (0)
August 2, 2007
....
As I left my almost empty room last night, I could help but feel I've made a huge mistake. It was the most beautiful room in the lovliest of locations, and I have downgraded just to have a living room and a tidy house. I'm sure I can make it work, it'll just take time for me to get used to it, and for me to add my own touches.
On a happier note, Kyle has booked his tickets for the next visit. 13 December to 12 January !!!! A whole month, of which most of it wil probably be spent watching dvds or anime as it's a bloody miserable time of the year (weather wise at least), apart from Christmas time, which will be split with Mother dearest on the island, and my dad when he comes over during that period. Can't wait to stuff my face with bread sauce and Quality Streets. Debating whether to have a family New Year, or go out on the lash celebrating Hogmaney. There is still plenty of time anyway, but at least I have something to carry me through the next couple of months.
Edinburgh is looking festivally and such, with the festival officially starting yesterday. Was in a minor car bang up yesterday when Johnathon pulled out of an intersection into a car, on MY side!!! I got the knock, but thankfully it was only going 10mph. To be honest, I didn't panic even as I saw the car come towards me, as I was so sad I was leaving my flat.
I'm typing this at work, as the silly internets will not be up for at least a week in the flat *shakes fist*. I'm very down about that. I need the internet in order to actually function, plus I miss FFXI already. Was just beginning to enjoy punching walls in Assaults. It's rather annoying, and BT haven't phoned me up yet to set up a line. Once the line is sorted, I can actually go ahead and organise some ADSL. Silly flat is non-cable, but hey. So many things I need to get to make the flat nice, and I want to do it this weekend, but I also want to spend time with my mom. Furniture shopping isn't exactly the way you want to show someone your town.
Anyway, lunch is almost over, so it's back to the slog. Absolutely knackered from sleeping on a broken bed last night and hoisting things up stairs. Still a few more things to move (like my pc...who needs a pc when you don't have internet!), so granted tomorrow will be exhausting too.
Happy days
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