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April 27, 2008

big decision...indecision

As a scientist, it's hard to believe in things you can't explain. Life has a wonderful way of keeping me on my toes with such things. I spend many a night wondering why I am here on this earth, and how everything that is as it is could have happened by chance. There is a great rift between the evolutionists and the creationists, and it's hard to have to choose sides, so to speak. I am pretty neutral on this matter, as I believe both can coexist. Who are we to say what is and what isn't? I find it perplexing that people try and explain these greater puzzles. I was watching a programme on Stephen Hawking, which made me laugh. I'm to believe all these things because he came up with a few equations that agree with logic, and so must be correct? I do believe there is something out there that is much bigger than our minds can handle. I'm not disputing evolution, far from it, I completely support the idea that organisms evolve, I just struggle with the fact that something like, say, the eye came abouts by chance of mutation. I wouldn't say I was a religious person, but I do believe our lives are predestined - that there is a greater plan.

What my greater plan is - I am still trying to work that out. I have some big decisions to make over the next few months, ones that will impact the rest of my life, and it's hard to try guess whether you are making the right one. Decisions that may seem right now, may not necessarily be right in the future. Butterfly flapping its wings and all that. I'm scared of these things. I'm sure everyone wants to go through life making the right choices, so as to make their short time on this earth as enjoyable as possible. Could it be that we don't actually have any choice in the matter? That the choice that we make was already made for us before we were confronted with the question?

Far too philosophical for this time of the morning. I have far more important things to think about. Viruses for one. And the fact that I have exams in 11 and 16 days time, and feel horribly underprepared. So far this semester has gone without hitch, I've got the grades I've wanted, but I can't help expect the winning streak to be broken any moment now. I have bigger things playing on my mind, and I'm not as focused for these exams as I have been in the past. Hopefully I will have a fresh start in September, when things in my head are sorted. Right now, I shall live each day as it comes. One can never plan too much for the future. That greater plan may not agree with those plans.

Posted by kat at 5:31 PM | Comments (0)

April 24, 2008

summer! surely not?

For the first time in many, many months, the sun decided to grace us with its presence.

I took a photo as proof

Tomorrow's Friday, and I have 20 more sleeps =D

Posted by kat at 3:14 PM | Comments (0)

April 18, 2008

hi

I have been rather busy on the studying front. I say busy, I mean sporadic bursts of study followed by naps. I've also been really good with my running lately. This week I did 30km over 4 days, something I am proud of. The funny thing is, it's getting really easy now, that I get bored because I don't have to concentrate on the the breathing aspect or such. I've also developed a lovely bunion on my big toe as I tend to twist my foot in at a strange angle when I run >_<

On a more serious note, please visit here . I went to school with this girl, and want to tell as many people about this worthy cause, as she is such an amazing person. In a nutshell, she has been diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia, and her family need to raise funds for a bone marrow transplant. Any and all donations are welcomed. There are details on the web page.

Back to the slog. I write my first exam on Tuesday, and am trying to convince myself that exams are really that close, because I feel like I should be on a beach in the bahamas drinking cocktails out of pineapples with the amount of motivation I have at the moment.

Posted by kat at 1:38 PM | Comments (0)

April 9, 2008

Cereus business, part II

So, my flight is booked to the Americas...35 more sleeps. I cannot wait, which is bad, because I should be studying, and instead I am packing my bags (which are packed by the way, all that is missing is socks and underpants) and playing su-doku. I have breaking news as well, I have turned into a 90 year old. I completed a su-doku puzzle and sent it off for a chance to win £1000. Hey, money is money, right? You never know, I may just be that lucky person to be drawn out of the hat (but more than likely not), but I think i may be one of the younger applicants, seeing as last month's winner was Ms Ethel Davies. Bet you she's treating herself to some tea-cakes as we speak.

Studying is not happening. I am lacking the enthusiasm this semester. It happened last year as well. They give us too much time to study, and you lose pace. I am looking forward to two out of the three subjects when stage two approaches (I use a three-stage strategy, first spend a few days over one block writing and reading up on notes, second I study the whole block in one day, and memorise, then I move on to splitting all the blocks over the two days before the exam, all the while consulting past papers), but the third one is a drag. I can't even bring myself to finishing stage one, I just want to skip over to stage two. Mind numbing stuff.

Went back to the gym today, and it felt great. Did my 5km run (t'was very good), and 3km on the cross trainer (which is really any excuse to watch day-time tellie as I do not own a tv), which was just enough to leave my legs slightly shaky and wore me out a bit. Low and behold, 5 minutes later I was buzzing around a bit and have been struggling to sit still all day.

Anyways, back to day-dreaming about conquering the Americas again. How I miss those hotdogs and relish..mmmmm

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